Post 286: Vancouver (4/11/10)

Vancouver (4/11/10 c, w) t

I couldn’t believe, believe my eyes

When I read what she said
Who could have thought that one email
Could make me wish I were dead

It’s hard to read BU when I would have married her instead

I’m taking a chance despite  my failed romance

Trying to live a dream, a dream that I had because of her
In her home town
I’m moving to Vancouver

Now I fear every step I take

That I’m going to see, see her face
And she’ll recognize me too
And it will be awkward whatever I do
Moving to Vancouver

Now I’m living all alone
Finally out on my own
Still hoping that in time, in time I can get her off my mind
Because what I thought was strong turned out so wrong

There is a place way deep inside
Where to myself I have lied, let myself believe that maybe she still wanted me
And we were right, but at the wrong time
I’m moving to Vancouver

Now I fear every step I take

That I’m going to see, see her face
And she’ll recognize me too
And it will be awkward whatever I do
Moving to Vancouver

Living in a foreign land
Where I don’t even have a friend
Or know anyone, anyone except the ghost for my past
I don’t know if I can make this last
But I want to follow through even if I won’t end up where I wanted to

This is my first and only chance

Though I wish it would have solidified our romance
But I was too late; I wish I could’ve moved out sooner to be with her
I tried so hard but couldn’t make it true

I would have given my life to be with her, but we’re clearly through

I’m moving to Vancouver

Now I fear every step I take

That I’m going to see, see her face
And she’ll recognize me too
And it will be awkward whatever I do
Moving to Vancouver