Post 561: 17 Days Until Xms (3/31/10)

17 Days Until Xmas (12/5/09 c, 3/31/10 w)

I’ve put the decorations and lights on my Xmas tree

I’ve started watching Xmas specials
That remind me of the past
Waiting up for Santa Claus
And how the world held such possibility

17 days until Xmas

I’ve still got so much to do
But it doesn’t help, that I can’t get over you
Outside I may seem happy
But that I just my disguise
I don’t want you to see the tears I’ve cried
17 day until Xmas

I remember how I would never see

Never see you singing beside my Xmas tree
Never hear your angel’s song
As I sadly tried to sing along
I wanted to be, to be your everything
And a big part of your life

17 days until Xmas

I’ve still got so much to do
But it doesn’t help, that I can’t get over you
Outside I may seem happy
But that I just my disguise
I don’t want you to see the tears I’ve cried
17 day until Xmas

I know that I may be stuck in the past

Of memories I’ve never had
But I have never wanted anything
Anything that bad
When I think of all of the things I’ve missed
It still makes me sad

17 days until Xmas

I’ve still got so much to do
But it doesn’t help, that I can’t get over you
Outside I may seem happy
But that I just my disguise
I don’t want you to see the tears I’ve cried
17 day until Xmas