Post 556: Not Over You Yet (3/30/10)

Not Over You Yet (12/3/09 c, 3/30/10 w)

Hours have turned to days, days have turned to years

Here I am still here
Wondering, wondering where it went wrong
Why I never got to hear you sing your Christmas songs
Wondering why I never had a place by your tree
In your heart
Why you are not next to me

I guess I’m not over you yet
Tell me how I can  be
I want to forget your memory
But when I close my eyes you’re still the first one I see
In my dreams
Maybe I should have dealt with it
But I’m not, I’m not
Not over you yet
I’m not over you yet

 Here I am staring out an empty window

Watching the snow fall outside
Looking at a snowman standing alone
Wondering if that is my fate
Recalling our first kiss
And how awkward, how awkward it is
But how it made me feel alive
For the first time

I guess I’m not over you yet

Tell me how I can  be
I want to forget your memory
But when I close my eyes you’re still the first one I see
In my dreams
Maybe I should have dealt with it
But I’m not, I’m not
Not over you yet
I’m not over you yet

So much going on in my mind

Thinking about a life with you
If dreams could come true
Watching our progeny looking at the Christmas tree
Eyes wide open as they would see all the presents
Excitedly tearing off the wrapping
And maybe I could see vicariously the joy in their eyes
How it felt back then to be alive

I guess I’m not over you yet

Tell me how I can  be
I want to forget your memory
But when I close my eyes you’re still the first one I see
In my dreams
Maybe I should have dealt with it
But I’m not, I’m not
Not over you yet
I’m not over you yet