Post 354: Angst Song (4/11/10)

Angst Song (1/27/10 c, 4/11/10 w)

The leaves from the trees keep falling on me

Sure rub it in
How I can’t even find a girlfriend
There is nobody I see who could ever, ever fall for me

The sun in the sky

Messes with my eyes
And hides what is in front of me
I can’t, I can’t see anything

The rain’s call is my own freedom

The only constant to believe in
Everyone else runs, runs away
Leaving me alone, all alone

To wonder why, why what I have

What has become, become of my life
But I don’t have the answer

As the horizon is too far away
So I can’t get my bearings
I can’t navigate, navigate life’s choppy seas
What hope is there, what hope is there for me

Is there choice

Or is it just an illusion
Trying to figure out what I do
If it really means, means anything

But I draw a blank

As I always, as I always do
Searching the dictionary
For a definition of a word that I don’t know

Looking for some place, somewhere to call home

I never fit in
There has never been a place I fit in

Where the hell should I, should I begin
To solve this puzzle
Without an answer, without an answer