Post 98: Failure (8/9/05)

Failure (8/9/05)

I thought by now

I’d be climbing the corporate ladder
But that hasn’t happened to me
I couldn’t even buy a job
My resume is blanker than the face of a dog

(This is not the life I wanted

This is not who I thought I would be
Failure
Is the best description
Failure
Is this what has become of me)

I had such high hopes

I thought that the world was open to me
Looking back
I was building a life
Like a boat that sank into the sea
Failure
Why has this happened to me

I thought by now

I’d be loving my wife (for the rest of my life)
But that hasn’t happened to me
Nobody wants a loser like me
Especially without any security
At the end of my life will love have forsaken me

(chorus)

I thought that by now I’d be out on my own

That hasn’t happened to me, I’m still living at home
I don’t really like it I know
It’s like a badge of shame
That I just can’t shake
But I can’t make it on my own

(chorus)

I’ve tried and I’ve failed

While my dreams died one by one
The world is not the place I thought it would be
I’ve almost had enough of me

(chorus)