Post 979: Self Delusion (5/2/25)

 Self Delusion (5/2/25)

You told me that you loved me

You told me you would never end

End it this way

That i meant too much to you

Now here i sit staring at the screen

Tears streaming from my eyes

i never thought that you would lie

Ending it this way, with

All of the words you wouldn't say

Is it just my self-delusion

That keeps me from this state of pain

Thinking no way that this would 

Would ever be my reality

You said you loved, loved me

It had to be true

Cause i know i couldn't take

Take a day without you

 

Now, now that you're through

i can't make myself feel it too

You don't need me, but i still need you

i'll always love you

That i promised, promised you

i've forgotten how, how to breathe

And my heart stopped its beat

Trying to remember how, how to stay alive

Or questioning if i even want to

Is it just my self-delusion

That keeps me from this state of pain

Thinking no way that this would 

Would ever be my reality

You said you loved, loved me

It had to be true

Cause i know i couldn't take

Take a day without you

Thinking maybe someday

In some distant time and place

Someday i'll see your smiling face

Like i used to

The sparkle in your eyes looking, looking into mine

My heart remembers to beat again

Yours does too

Telling me the time is now

We'll forever be

Restarting our love, not quite new

Another, another self-delusion that can never be

Never be

Is it just my self-delusion

That keeps me from this state of pain

Thinking no way that this would 

Would ever be my reality

You said you loved, loved me

It had to be true

Cause i know i couldn't take

Take a day without you